Overachiever

 When someone dies, usually the question that comes up or discussed is "did they suffer". Everyone wants to know I won't suffer...but the truth is that I suffered a lot. For many months, I was told death from kidney disease is painless. It is somewhat true, relatively speaking. It's not the kind of suffering you get with burn victims or some cancers. But there was definitely plenty of suffering. I'll list the symptoms at the end, for anyone who wants specifics, but the bottom line is that the final month of my life, October 2022, was exceptionally miserable, and by November 1st I felt I couldn't take it anymore. I wanted to give my partners time to digest this decision, so I set the death to Nov 9th. This also gave me time to throw one more cuddle party. However, I regretted that decision that very night, due to the harshness of my symptoms, and decided to move it up to right after the party (nov 6). Making all these decisions were the hardest thing I ever

 I've refrained from discussing this publicly thus far, and declined many interviews by the press, in the hope things will resolve before my death. However, it appears to be going nowhere, so I wanted to share this story. I imagine some of you might one-day run across my child Sol (now going by they/them, I’ve heard). They and I don't have a relationship and haven't been together for 1.5 years, although not by my choice. My ex-wife has been attempting to present it as Sol's decision or desire, but that is a lie. The truth is that she began sabotaging our relationship from the day we split up. There have been repeated messages and attempts to dissuade me from seeing him, and later, several lawsuits against me, with the claim that me practicing polyamory is ruining their life, and that the values of loving more makes me a bad parent. As we all know, every story has 3 sides. Mine, hers, and the truth. No one is obliged to believe me over her, but the fact is that 3 separat